"Squall, I was scared, I was really really scared"
"Just stay close to me."
Lies
They were all mere lies
Assassination, Lost in space, Time Compression
They've been through that
So what?

She understood what he faced
He was crumbling under the pressure
He couldn't take it any longer
And he supposed I could?!
*I'm* the sorceress, *I'm* the one who's being condemned
Commander of SeeD
The title that hypothetically gave him the right to think otherwise.
He claims he care, I don't quite think so.

Time passed. A frail thing it was
The thin line that her emotions had trespassed.
The hatred in her grew. And she knew the feelings were mutual.
It was ironic.
The figure she once loved is now the core of her abhorrence.
She knew she probably did love him still.
But she'll rather choose to indulge in hatred.
It was after all the easier way out

Rinoa stood in front of the mirror
She didn't like what she saw
The hazel eyes that stared back at her
She saw the weak being that it belonged to
She hated it all, she hated what she became

She was a strong girl
A leader too
Her strong will behind her fervent smile was what drove the others to never fall in their never-ending fight for Timber's independence.
To others, she possessed the carefree attitude
It was a daily facade
One that she easily got used to

If it was one thing her bastard of a father did right,
It was allowing her to see that she was alone
It did strengthen her soul
For the 18 years that she lived, she knew she could trust no one
Fully count on no one but herself
Meeting Squall was a passing phrase
It was her foolishness to believe that he would always be there for her
She hated herself for being so weak and naive

Maybe she ought to thank him
Her heart would not shatter once more
For a fragile vase could not be broken twice
Picking up the piece to mend it
It would no longer be the same as before
The unsightly cracks could never be washed off

A guy could never really love a girl
Pre-matured thinking as a little girl who deemed the opposite sex as enemy
She laughed at her infantile behavior then
Paradoxical that she was mocking herself now
Perhaps truth was always clearer as a child

They chided her for being childish, especially Quistis
Immature without a sense of danger
She knew she was only trouble
She was after all the sorceress
(Even if you become the world's enemy, I'll be your knight)
But yet he was drifting away from her before that even happened.
A sorceress without her knight.
She was lost.

It was weeks since they last saw each other
Does he miss me?
Does he love me still?
Did he even love me?
She doubt it
It seemed cynical to think that way
But she wasn't being pessimistic, she was being realistic
Living in optimism was merely living in denial

Time may heal all wounds
But words left scars
No amount of time could erase those scars
The hurt that only grew deeper each passing day

Her fingers moved over the ivory keys of her piano naturally
The melancholic tune
Her raven locks covered her eyes
Everything you said and promised were lies, your action further proves it
She shut her eyes, forbidding her tears to fall

It hurt, it hurt a lot
She only wished for time to return to then...
"I don't want the future, I just want the present to stand still, I just want to stay here with you..."
She hated herself then for uttering such pathetic words.
Even though she knew it was true...
That she longed for his embrace once again...

NO! She won't have it that way!
I won't be a weakling
She learnt to be alone before
All she had to do was search for the past, live in it and leave the memories of the present

Looking around, engulfed in darkness
Yes she was, and always will be
Alone



One reason
A hundred delusions
A thousand daggers
A million tears

Infinite hurt

Shall I become no more than a puppet?
A mindless puppet, never to laugh, never to cry?
I wish to live my life under the sky.
At times I shall laugh, at other times cry.
For no life is more insincere than that lived as a masquerade.
-I want to be your canary
Lord Avon, Final Fantay IX

`Loves everybody in my life (most anyways)
`Music is my world!
`I drink but i don't smoke...such an angel (a)
`Shopping makes me happy =)
`Definition of craziness = Kbox with KC-ians
`Don't ever take my psp away from me...ROAR!!
`I'll never get fat from suppers with the supper gang...really!
`Square love =)
`Can't wait to get out of this farkin island for good
`SUSHIIIIII!!!
`My Hiroki Baby *muacks* <3

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