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.Tuesday, December 26, 2006 ' 10:50:00 PM Y
XOXO, there's only me.

Have you ever cried at night,
Thinking it was bad,
Have you ever lost a love,
The only thing you ever had,
Have you ever screamed out loud,
From pain that you have felt,
Have you ever stopped and looked,
At pain that you have dealt,
Have you ever questioned someone,
Of love and if its true,
Have you ever really wondered,
If they truly feel for you,
Have you ever felt abused,
Or worried while you wait,
Have you ever made a big huge deal,
Over someone being late,
Have you ever had them leave,
And watched them walk away,
Have you ever thought of leaving,
But could only sit and stay,
Have you ever hurt someone,
And looked at what you've done,
Have you ever been the one that's hurt,
And thought that you were the only one,
Have you ever loved another,
And never told them so,
Have you ever tried to tell them,
But didn't know how it would go,
Have you ever been alone,
Where no one else could see,
So you sat at home remaining unknown,
having nowhere else to be.
I've felt this way before,
I've felt and dealt it all,
I've even lied,
I've even cried,
I've even felt the fall.
But nothing makes it better,
The Guilt or the Pain I feel,
I wish it all would go away,
I wish it wasn't real,
But that is not the case,
And it could never be,
It took me too long to open up,
And took me way too long to see,
I must;
Own up to mistakes I've made,
Get past the pains I've felt,
Wipe away the tears that are in my eyes,
And reflect on the tears I've dealt,
And Tell someone when I love them,
Before they go away,
And maybe if I word it right,
They just might want to stay.
-Dennis Mayer





.Saturday, December 23, 2006 ' 10:06:00 PM Y
XOXO, there's only me.

TCC is fun! Free food free drinks and finally got shuai ge!
Sarah's gonna get married...to her bf of 17 yrs!!
And I thought my uncle's marriage was like one in a million...
Both first love...so sweet! Maybe there really are happily ever afters
or maybe its ended with the previous generation haha
Anyways I hope the other TCC branch would be fun as well..

After taking orders everyday, it feels so shiok to be served!
Yummy yummy pizza hut...
I saw a family sharing a huge x'mas special pizza...
So sweet...made me so envious
I'm definitely gonna make sure my future family will be like that
And nothing like mine now...wahaha
But what's sadder was I dropped a whole spicy drumlet!! And a fry...and a calamari ring!!
Can cry la wa lao...='(

Yday was a happy day!
Met up with the LCMS
Fats is gonna get fatter from tcc-ing 2 consecutive days
Yummy Olio, cute bunk JL wahaha
Merry X'mas and ferro roche....so funny la but we still didnt get discount =(
After that we went to visit Anna and had to literally run thru raffles city to catch the last train
Omg so damn tiring I havent ran since 2.4...must go joggin soon waha
So damn shag when I reached home but I couldnt kick the habit of goin online...bad choice
Chat till 4am! So sleepy...lucky no work
Whatever it is, Jamie still loves lessy ok? Heh
wheeee
WHEEEEE
WHEEEEEEEEEEE
HAPPY DAY =)

Ten days without breakage...I'm so pro
Four days since I slept on a wet pillow
Seven days from now that I hope will pass real soon

I cant believe the whole time I talked to him and I thought that it would be someone else! DAMMIT

And now I don't understand what I'm going through
Must be a plan that led me to you
Because the hurt just disappears
In every moment that you are near, yeah
Just like an answered prayer
You make the loneliness easy to bear

You really know where to start
Fixing a broken heart
You really know what to do
Your emotional tools can't cure any fool
Whose dreams have fallen apart
Fixing a broken heart

I love that song...


































I never knew there would be a day I would dread X'mas
The season of warmth, love, happiness? Bah!






































I dunno why but...
Despite what you did or do
No matter how many times I've said it,
As much as I want to,
I cant bring myself to hate you





.Tuesday, December 19, 2006 ' 7:21:00 PM Y
XOXO, there's only me.

Yesterday I saw someone who looked a looot like a once very best fren of mine.
Totally stunned, so were Shann and Nat.
New improved version. Totally.
Ha my new fave is G2000 esp Ice Vanilla Almond Nut.

16th Dec Sat
Went to EOY...admission was $12 and when it was nearin the end they took the barricades away!! That means we could have gotten in for free!! Plus the better cosplayers only came at the later part!! TMD!! Ah well at least it was fun.

Headed to East point for a short while and Studio Wu was having a performance! I managed to take a video of the girls hip hop dance and they were dancin to my current addiction~
I wonder if you know, how they live in tokyo
If you see it and you mean it then you know you got to go
fast and furioous~
drift drift drift
Haha I know its been ages since it was released...fine I'm slow =(

Back to the cosplay..let the pics do the talking...









So cute la, she was restin on the seats and couldnt get up lol








Willy wanker as my baby cousin says HAHAHA















The many KH2 characters... I wanted to take pic with a kairi and since I saw 2 of them I assumed more would cosplay as Kairi so I waited and waited for a pretty Kairi to show up...and then they all vanished...hahaha ooo not forgettin the many Soras that had eaten too many pizzas...








The turks...Reno and Elena...RENO!!!







Double Vincents...The first one was super cool and good looking too. And he was totally in character!
The second was frenly and pretty =)









More Advent Children characters..Yuffie's costume was super real, Cid looked like the real thing but a younger version. Kadaj (Or was it Lazoo?)...dun rmb haha and Cloud was beng. Nice sword though. I saw an Aeris and FF7 Yuffie but...i decline to comment =)


Death Squad...never watched it before, but one of the cosplayers was cute waha~ Too bad he looks weird here =(




FMA




Cardcaptor Sakura! All time pri school-lower sec fave!! Wahah














FFX-2 Yuna white mage...I saw a songstress but...no comments haha




L and Light...






A close up of L.
Of Cos L would be my main focus..heeeh. This guy really looked like L when he was posing. Super shuai super shuai...Until he look up and smiled...that's...another story haha





This L looked even more L haha










Oh and I met farah too.






Free? So that's why you really wanted it
So that's your side

It took you less than 3 days
No different from them
A leopard never changes its spots
I trusted you, i disbelieved that statement

I must be stupid, must be blind


But no matter what, you'll always be my no.1







.Thursday, December 14, 2006 ' 6:59:00 PM Y
XOXO, there's only me.

TCC is gonna make me fat..
I tot soy and soya was the same thing? Or is it not?
So much to study
And now I know why that guy always guai lan me cos he looks like -----
No wonder la same stupid smile...or more like smirk, thats y still retain similar essence

Birds of the same feather flock together
But what if one got too fat and had too many feathers so I guess they arent quite the same?
Hhaha not making sense...

I fell and it hurt...ITAI!! Waha~

Ooo the luxury of sitting down...

Oh and one more thing I've been keeping in for so long...
KNNBCCB!! Fuck you la cb kia! Stupid fucker, hope your LJ rot and have maggots feeding of it. CCB wa lao u suey suey I happen to see that! Dunno how many times or how many otehrs already no wonder will act like tt! CB fucker, bloody KNS prick, think I'm still kept in the dark eh? Got to be smarter than that then...damn you asshole...too huge a reaction? Fuck you la...

Whee I've never cursed like that before, now I see why those bengs n lians love talking like that...feels liberating? Ha but I'll prefer to stick to the refine me wahah~






.Tuesday, December 12, 2006 ' 11:27:00 PM Y
XOXO, there's only me.

"Squall, I was scared, I was really really scared"
"Just stay close to me."
Lies
They were all mere lies
Assassination, Lost in space, Time Compression
They've been through that
So what?

She understood what he faced
He was crumbling under the pressure
He couldn't take it any longer
And he supposed I could?!
*I'm* the sorceress, *I'm* the one who's being condemned

Commander of SeeD
The title that hypothetically gave him the right to think otherwise.
He claims he care, I don't quite think so.

Time passed. A frail thing it was
The thin line that her emotions had trespassed.
The hatred in her grew. And she knew the feelings were mutual.
It was ironic.
The figure she once loved is now the core of her abhorrence.
She knew she probably did love him still.
But she'll rather choose to indulge in hatred.
It was after all the easier way out

Rinoa stood in front of the mirror
She didn't like what she saw
The hazel eyes that stared back at her
She saw the weak being that it belonged to
She hated it all, she hated what she became

She was a strong girl
A leader too
Her strong will behind her fervent smile was what drove the others to never fall in their never-ending fight for Timber's independence.
To others, she possessed the carefree attitude
It was a daily facade
One that she easily got used to

If it was one thing her bastard of a father did right,
It was allowing her to see that she was alone
It did strengthen her soul
For the 18 years that she lived, she knew she could trust no one
Fully count on no one but herself
Meeting Squall was a passing phrase
It was her foolishness to believe that he would always be there for her
She hated herself for being so weak and naive

Maybe she ought to thank him
Her heart would not shatter once more
For a fragile vase could not be broken twice
Picking up the piece to mend it
It would no longer be the same as before
The unsightly cracks could never be washed off

A guy could never really love a girl
Pre-matured thinking as a little girl who deemed the opposite sex as enemy
She laughed at her infantile behavior then
Paradoxical that she was mocking herself now
Perhaps truth was always clearer as a child

They chided her for being childish, especially Quistis
Immature without a sense of danger
She knew she was only trouble
She was after all the sorceress
(Even if you become the world's enemy, I'll be your knight)
But yet he was drifting away from her before that even happened.
A sorceress without her knight.
She was lost.

It was weeks since they last saw each other
Does he miss me?
Does he love me still?
Did he even love me?
She doubt it
It seemed cynical to think that way
But she wasn't being pessimistic, she was being realistic
Living in optimism was merely living in denial

Time may heal all wounds
But words left scars
No amount of time could erase those scars
The hurt that only grew deeper each passing day

Her fingers moved over the ivory keys of her piano naturally
The melancholic tune
Her raven locks covered her eyes
Everything you said and promised were lies, your action further proves it
She shut her eyes, forbidding her tears to fall

It hurt, it hurt a lot
She only wished for time to return to then...

"I don't want the future, I just want the present to stand still, I just want to stay here with you..."
She hated herself then for uttering such pathetic words.
Even though she knew it was true...

That she longed for his embrace once again...

NO! She won't have it that way!
I won't be a weakling
She learnt to be alone before
All she had to do was search for the past, live in it and leave the memories of the present

Looking around, engulfed in darkness
Yes she was, and always will be
Alone




One reason
A hundred delusions
A thousand daggers
A million tears

Infinite hurt







Jamie EveY

Shall I become no more than a puppet?
A mindless puppet, never to laugh, never to cry?
I wish to live my life under the sky.
At times I shall laugh, at other times cry.
For no life is more insincere than that lived as a masquerade.
-I want to be your canary
Lord Avon, Final Fantay IX

Hear It Now!Y

`Loves everybody in my life (most anyways)
`Music is my world!
`I drink but i don't smoke...such an angel (a)
`Shopping makes me happy =)
`Definition of craziness = Kbox with KC-ians
`Don't ever take my psp away from me...ROAR!!
`I'll never get fat from suppers with the supper gang...really!
`Square love =)
`Can't wait to get out of this farkin island for good
`SUSHIIIIII!!!
`My Hiroki Baby *muacks* <3

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debbie
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idg
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inu
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