'What doesnt kill you, makes you stronger'

Got a message from Nuttie this morning
Glad that I'm not the only one reminiscing KC times
It's been ages since I saw her
Considering all those times when we attended gatherings and the other just had to be absent
Hell, it's been a long time since I met any of the blueberry morning (Lol!) ppl
Except for Grace...(Duh! Cos she's in the same screwed up sch!!)

Had a really weird dramatic dream last night...
And the theme was *drum rolls* suicide!!
It was a really long cinematic dream
In three diff POVs!!
First I was some person...and then I cant rememeber what happened (haha!)
Then, I was a man who committed suicide after I did something like bury my boss in this hole and somehow he managed to get out and that's why I jumped...hahah!!
And the funny part was I jumped out of the window the way I would dive into a pool!! LMAO!! So dumb la!!
Lastly I was in a role of an individual more real..I was a student and I went to consult my teacher...and i cant really recall what happened just that suddenly he had this malicious grin and then he took out a blade and slit the side of my throat..
I guess that's not really suicide, but the funny thing was I was still able to control my movements and my mind wasnt a blur (At least in my dream it wasnt)
No no the interesting part was that I could feel the coldness of the blade against my neck while it was being slit. Then I wasnt sure if I was dead so I reached out to feel for my blood but before my nerves could send any messages to my brain to detect anything...
I woke up.

Dreams mean the opposite they say
Does that mean I'm supposedly enthusiastic about my life now?
Haha not quite so as much as I would love to believe otherwise
Hmm, I read somewhere before that its good to slp by a notepad so one could record their dreams the moment they awake before they forget anything
Then they should check up the dream dictionary or decipher-er or something and it would allow a better understanding of themselves.
What crap la!
Where got ppl so free wake up only den record things that happened in their 'otherworld'
The first thing I think of when I wake up is "Damn I need to pee" or "Shit I'm gonna miss the early bus" or the likes of that.

Anyway, yesterday was a day well spent on revision...on FF8!!
With my very source of reminiscence - ff.net!!
I so miss the game!!
I miss wishing that I was living in the game~
I miss fantasizing that I was Rinoa with my very own Seifer/Squall!!
I miss penning down alternate lives of the characters thru fanfics!!
Sigh, the harsh reality!! (Ya I know I was crazy)

I guess I could unleash my fetish on ff8 another time since the entry's getting long and I'm sick of typing right now...
Well, the use of parenthesis has been fun...Ha!




That's why I ain't gettin stronger...cos it's killing me softly

Shall I become no more than a puppet?
A mindless puppet, never to laugh, never to cry?
I wish to live my life under the sky.
At times I shall laugh, at other times cry.
For no life is more insincere than that lived as a masquerade.
-I want to be your canary
Lord Avon, Final Fantay IX

`Loves everybody in my life (most anyways)
`Music is my world!
`I drink but i don't smoke...such an angel (a)
`Shopping makes me happy =)
`Definition of craziness = Kbox with KC-ians
`Don't ever take my psp away from me...ROAR!!
`I'll never get fat from suppers with the supper gang...really!
`Square love =)
`Can't wait to get out of this farkin island for good
`SUSHIIIIII!!!
`My Hiroki Baby *muacks* <3

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