________~*~Life's like this~*~________

.Friday, October 20, 2006 ' 12:55:00 AM Y

XOXO, there's only me.

Ok, let's go back to yesterday...or should i say 2 days ago since its already past midnight...

Well, it was the last official day of school...hmm...wasnt really feeling sad or anything at all.
During the farewell assembly there were slideshows and performances that were put up by the teachers.
Supposedly touching but oh no, me didnt feel the least bit sad...like totally no feeling at all leh
Sigh, how ah? Am I that cold hearted?
Or maybe I didnt manage to read the messages dedicated to S13 from the teachers cos we were too busy screaming whenever we saw S13 instead of reading haha

At least we managed to catch a gist of the messages...
J Lam's: something abt like tokin to the class, esp the gals
Sky's: 5 PRINCESSES *curtsies* ^________^
Adrian Tan: Ok, I have to admit I have no idea what he said
JC: We were mentioned LAST =(
Screamed like siao when PP was dancing but dun think it was audible anyways
And our "VVV-" HAHAHAH

FATTY'S B'DAY AT SAKAE

How glam
Rosie you cant escape with ur big red bangle!! Extra hand, extra head, extra body LOL

Cam Vs Cam

Fats!! Now do u believe u have a big head??!! Lol and Roti's slpin again..

Cake time!!
In memory of the anti-climax sashimi

Stupid Weiliang, people pay $16 to eat and all you did was talk and talk hahaha

'Oops I dropped my sushi' trick?
And we continued to eat and eat

And so did he...
Udon with 3 slices of chocolate cake...wun LS meh?

Group pic!!
Sakae has nice waiters =)

Finally...proper gals' pic...but where's toots??

Failure attempt for 'act stupid' shot...WAA...traitors =( haha
Rosie really went all out LMAO ^__^

Haiii-yak!!
AND FOR OUR TRADITIONAL B'DAY ZAAAP!!!

Too bad we couldnt do our fave pose cos our cameraman, Kingkong wouldnt be able too take it hahaha!!

Lesson of the day 1: Girls have better sense of direction...look who got on the bus and who didnt :P
Lesson of the day 2: Hello Kitty wards off evil ;)

Now onto Thurs---->

DEATHNOTE ROCKS!!! Good thing I only read one or two books...those who read the entire series like Meng Wee and the other guy looked real bored, or so I heard...haha

AND L'S CUTE!!! I dun think anyone would agree with me since he had to play such a sloppy character but he's damn cute la!! So much cuter than the stupid battle royale guy...dunno why they chose HIM to play as Light since Light suppose to be a really really shuai guy...And Misa's annoying...had to put up with KH's even more annoying "so cute!! so cute!!" Lol kidding la he had to put up with my "so shuai!! so shuai!!" too ^______^

Disturbing facts about Deathnote the movie:
- No one ever perspires after a basketball match...and Light even wore his jacket after that...so smelly la!!
- L never gets fat!!
- There wasnt any blood after a head shot
- The death god whines
- The Deathnote never runs out of pages
- How he writes a name so wide and spread across a single page...waste paper la!! Save the trees!!

CANT WAIT TILL DEC FOR THE SEQUEL!!
AND I DUN WAN L TO DIE!!
OH OH AND I WAN L OR LIGHT'S BRAINS!! THEN AAA,A1 WOULD BE MIIINEE!!! WAHAHAHAA

Anyway we went studying after chatting for like almost 2hrs? Lol, wasnt very productive but at least i managed to complete one and a half papers? Ah well...I missed GOONG to study!! Sigh the sacrifices...=(

~You still my no.1
kimi to deai
shinjiru koto
wasurenai yuuki o mitsuketa yo
negai o komete
You still my No.1~

I wanna be your no.1 =)

.Friday, October 13, 2006 ' 2:24:00 PM Y

XOXO, there's only me.

OMG I SO FUCKING HATE FUCKING DESPOS
What the fuck did i do to be so suey?
And I thought last week was bad...
Or is it the time for the congregation of fucking hentais
Well all you perverts and despos out there...FUCK OFF!!
Go find a hole in a tree and fuck yourself out!!

I dun remember how he got on my contacts but this fucker claims to have added me long time ago...

salazar says:
i wanna rip ur pussy apart
salazar says:
hahahahaha
~*~Jamie~*~ [05Astatine] GOONG is starting to be nice =) says:
ya if i could i would love to slice off ur penis
salazar says:
wit ur mouth?
salazar says:
haha
~*~Jamie~*~ [05Astatine] GOONG is starting to be nice =) says:
i was think more of a knife

Well, that's part of it...Fuck!! So disgusted!! The next testerone-driven fucker I meet is so lucky cos those words would definitely be a mere prediction of his fate.

.Tuesday, October 10, 2006 ' 6:27:00 PM Y

XOXO, there's only me.

'What doesnt kill you, makes you stronger'

Got a message from Nuttie this morning
Glad that I'm not the only one reminiscing KC times
It's been ages since I saw her
Considering all those times when we attended gatherings and the other just had to be absent
Hell, it's been a long time since I met any of the blueberry morning (Lol!) ppl
Except for Grace...(Duh! Cos she's in the same screwed up sch!!)

Had a really weird dramatic dream last night...
And the theme was *drum rolls* suicide!!
It was a really long cinematic dream
In three diff POVs!!
First I was some person...and then I cant rememeber what happened (haha!)
Then, I was a man who committed suicide after I did something like bury my boss in this hole and somehow he managed to get out and that's why I jumped...hahah!!
And the funny part was I jumped out of the window the way I would dive into a pool!! LMAO!! So dumb la!!
Lastly I was in a role of an individual more real..I was a student and I went to consult my teacher...and i cant really recall what happened just that suddenly he had this malicious grin and then he took out a blade and slit the side of my throat..
I guess that's not really suicide, but the funny thing was I was still able to control my movements and my mind wasnt a blur (At least in my dream it wasnt)
No no the interesting part was that I could feel the coldness of the blade against my neck while it was being slit. Then I wasnt sure if I was dead so I reached out to feel for my blood but before my nerves could send any messages to my brain to detect anything...
I woke up.

Dreams mean the opposite they say
Does that mean I'm supposedly enthusiastic about my life now?
Haha not quite so as much as I would love to believe otherwise
Hmm, I read somewhere before that its good to slp by a notepad so one could record their dreams the moment they awake before they forget anything
Then they should check up the dream dictionary or decipher-er or something and it would allow a better understanding of themselves.
What crap la!
Where got ppl so free wake up only den record things that happened in their 'otherworld'
The first thing I think of when I wake up is "Damn I need to pee" or "Shit I'm gonna miss the early bus" or the likes of that.

Anyway, yesterday was a day well spent on revision...on FF8!!
With my very source of reminiscence - ff.net!!
I so miss the game!!
I miss wishing that I was living in the game~
I miss fantasizing that I was Rinoa with my very own Seifer/Squall!!
I miss penning down alternate lives of the characters thru fanfics!!
Sigh, the harsh reality!! (Ya I know I was crazy)

I guess I could unleash my fetish on ff8 another time since the entry's getting long and I'm sick of typing right now...
Well, the use of parenthesis has been fun...Ha!

That's why I ain't gettin stronger...cos it's killing me softly

.Saturday, October 07, 2006 ' 1:32:00 PM Y

XOXO, there's only me.

Argh...stupid hotdog
Bad case of LS
Mum said she's gonna cook tonight...
Another round awaits me? Lol...

Perverts and despos are disgusting
Especially if I dunno you at all
Info overshared!!
Eww feel so...violated? Outrage of modesty?
Haha too exagerrated la
Perhaps considered verbal sexually harrasement? Lol
Friggin disgusting

Another thing about MSN...
It's just lame how people love to announce their feelings on their nic
I'm not talking about things like yay and bla bla is love or bla bla sux
It's like how publish words that are most sensitive and they act all emo
When they disregard the feelings of the other party involved
And with their one sided potrayal
what else can their aim be but to spurn others to think likewise
And what's dumber is that they block the ppl whom their nics are directed to

I'm so bored!! Muggin is boring...
There's too much distraction at home...
maybe I should join zg at the cc?
haha ZG!! Power pad's fave!!
Haha good one more thing to suan him about

A frenship that was missed
Good thing chances were given to relinquish the opportunity

~~Why would anyone choose to hurt the one they love most? And even more so with such words?~~

.Monday, October 02, 2006 ' 9:09:00 PM Y

XOXO, there's only me.

Yay cramps werent that bad this month..
Bad...but not that bad...haha
Damn 3 yrs of liberation and it decided it couldnt part with me
Lol, fuck you oestrogen...bleah

I'm sick of gettin failing grades
I dunno if I can perform a miracle for all my subjects...includin GP...
omg...gp too..my only hope is shattered

Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It's so unreal
Didn't look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on, but didn't even know
Wasted it all just to watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried,
it all fell apart
What it meant to me
will eventually be a memory of a time when..

Yup, it's scary...i'm pretty much terrified..
Less then a month and i'm totally unprepared...
The more i study the more I know what I dunno and there's jus too much
Demoralising as it is and even more so when no one helps
Puts you down
And it's so difficult to seek consultation cos the damn teachers are hardly available
And so there goes the solution of tuition
But what good is it if your tutor is a stubborn grouchy old man whom speaks a language only he understands and puts you down every now and then too?
As though I didnt know my sch and grades sucks enough, quit harping on it
We all get the obvious fact so MOVE ON!

Things are bad, couldnt concentration
Would love to heck everything and just mug
Easier said than done
Maybe I'm just mentally weak since others seem to get by easily
I mean even if i do achieve so...is it too late?
I'm really scared
I trashed my life with one mistake after another

My stupid perceptions are stung by such inconsistency that makes it tiring
well heck it just heck it.
Yup I can do it, heck everything for it's worth
or better yet the lack of it

It's a rough time for everyone
Somehow the world just decided to go thru emo apocalypse now
There was an alpha so now there's an omega
Accept reality to be as harsh as it is
Now you cant blame me to be pessismistic me eh?

I dun like seeing my friends upset
We're all in this together
Let's all heck everything and be happy together k?
At least for the next one and a half months...
Yikes everyday's a fucked up day...
But come on it's just less than 50 more fucked up days
And we have survived more than 1.5 years of it

Let's just hang on ppl
You have all the time in the world to break down after As haha
Guess I suck at comforting
Jia you...that's all I hafta say..
Cheesy phrases like 'We managed to do it for Os we can do it again." or"We've come so far, we must have proven sumthin" are too overused and quite close to bull
So Jia you ppl, just hang on...