.Friday, July 07, 2006 ' 11:37:00 PM Y
XOXO, there's only me.
Keeping my mind focus for the next 4 mths
Heck everything else
Easier said than done
To skip a rather important event?
Why do I even bother about it
To once again contribute so much at my expense
Only to sit back and watch as I get nothing in return?
So fucking tired of the repeating scenario
Facing the often rejection
Every little undesirable action sparks instaneous flashbacks
Of every upsetting moment
The difficulty in lifting a finger for that reply
More emotionally exhausting it is for me
To constantly keep my hopes up
Surprise me, wont you?
All I wish for is for you to play your part
Or maybe that's too much to ask for
Perhaps I ain't good enough
Lack the brains, qualities, niches, looks
4 months till I finally do something about it
I'll definitely like to stop wasting my time
But that'll probably further deter me from my path
Would you even care if I do so?
Living in a hellmouth
Reflecting on my screwed up pathetic life
For tears to put me to sleep almost every other night
So to keep my mind focus for the next 4 mths
Heck everything else
Is that even possible?
