.Friday, June 30, 2006 ' 10:36:00 PM Y
XOXO, there's only me.
Just another horrible day of my life
Another paper
Another failure
Is it really not too late?
It seems to me that no matter what I'll probably land myself in the same ending...
My story? Concluding in an inevitable way?
How the fuck am i suppose to be optimisstic
The choices I've contemplated
I really dun wish to return to what I used to be like back then
But helpless am I as stuff jus flings me in that direction
Why should I care so much
It tires me out but yet I still do so
Nothing is what I get in return
I thought things would be better but I guess I was wrong
Living a lie...does that mean I go to hell?
Your jokes and comments were unnecessary
Aint pissed, just a little feeling I cant conceal...disappointment perhaps
I know when I'm useless and sucky
Happens alot and I really didnt need that
It would be nice if...
I guess there's no point for me to even get started on it
Wish God would just answer my prayers
Everyone has problems, yeah i know that shit
But I cant seem to handle mine anymore
Burying tears in my pillow can only inter that much
Wearing that fake smile and laughter gets more exhuasting each passing day
Solution to my problems
I know one
But cowardice is blocking my way
.Sunday, June 25, 2006 ' 4:14:00 PM Y
XOXO, there's only me.
I ain't sad.....
Just disappointed...damn flu
.Saturday, June 24, 2006 ' 10:54:00 PM Y
XOXO, there's only me.
Left with just a week to cover 2 subs
Enough to scare me into mugger mode
Equipped with zero knowledge
And zilch thirst for it
And I just hafta fall sick!!
Right when I wanna start muggin...
Wow I'm just not meant to study haha
Now nothing I'm readin is being absorbed
Not that it ever did la
Sigh, guess that's bye bye common test...
Nvm I'll redeem myself in prelims
Hopefully it won't be just mere words again this time...:X
Life sucks!!
.Thursday, June 15, 2006 ' 11:30:00 PM Y
XOXO, there's only me.
Shopping freely
Sakae-ing
Salmon stocking
Sashimi galore
VBall attempting
Splashing truth(s)
Tanning or likely burning
Photo craze
Yoshi b'day
Muthu's curry
Mustafa-ing, or maybe just
youNow THAT's joy =)
.Saturday, June 10, 2006 ' 10:28:00 PM Y
XOXO, there's only me.
Dreams are often said to supposedly depict our subconcious thoughts that are chucked in the back of our minds rite?
Funny, last night's dream almost mirrored reality
Or at least what I've occasionally been debating about
Vividly portraying the 'what if' scenarios
Probably spurred by the earlier convo..
or perhaps due to the events of the past few days
Regret over the mistake?
I'm in no position to consider the possibility
But I cant help but think that way
Confiding in me...why?
The confusion I'm facing...again, why?
Proven wrong
Not as dumb by looks
Won over by admiration
Strength, professionalism, maturity
Why didnt it all surface earlier?
Maybe then I would have trusted myself to agree so...
Even though I always knew it would have been a safer choice but decided otherwise
As for you, there's one thing I've been taught
Action speaks louder than words
Lesson has hit me hard
I'll shut my gap and gather the courage to do so
But I'll probably never will
That's the difference between us
Which leaves me at the losing end
Alone
.Friday, June 02, 2006 ' 5:53:00 PM Y
XOXO, there's only me.
Horrid horrid day!!
Can't believe I actually failed...
The shock...and no, I'm not being sarcastic this time....
Ok it's whining time for me...
To ace it was my aim
A C or a D was what I expected
But nooo, I actually failed it! Argh!!
Failed a friggin paper that many others easily aced
Failed a paper set by the 2nd last ranking jc
Failed a paper that earned a careless mistake in almost every friggin question
And I'm not exagerrating
Grr...but careless or not, the grade's gonna stay no matter what
I guess I might not make it after all
Suicide now or after 'A's wouldnt make a difference I guess...
Except the amount of disappointment I'll bury with me haha
Anyway, snapping back to reality,
the lecturer was a real bore and irritant
speaking at a rate of 3 seconds per word
'I'm so hungry I could eat a moo moo cow' ;)
Ended up playing volleyball outside the council room until oily man came along
Blerb blerb blerb
HAHAHA playing VBall!! ;)
After that, it was badminton with the LCMs
Too bad Tutti couldnt stay and then there was four haha
Oh yeah, Anna went auntie marketing too
Craziness...
I guess hanging with the LCMs really helped keep me from feeling depressed
Really glad that I could count on me maids to take my mind off stuff =)
Hate the fact that our time together will end before we know it...
Well, I'll be looking forward to our shopping spree and sentosa outing...not forgetting our VBalling!! Wahaha!! ;)
