.Saturday, January 14, 2006 ' 10:31:00 PM Y
XOXO, there's only me.
Gang of IV outing tomorrow...shouldn't I be overjoyed?
Embracing those wonderful KC times that I miss so much
But somehow it doesn't feel the same any longer
We've moved on with our lives
So many changes have taken place
They have changed
I have changedIt's not like I'm dreading it...I'm really looking forward to it
Just that the feelings are so caged
Drained so mentally, physically, emotionally
The past year that taught me so much
Happiness, Grief, Sadness, Regret
Somtimes I wish it had never taken place
Rewind back to my life before that and wished it never ended
I'm tired of these feelings
I'm tired of hearing myself gripe over it
I'm sure a fren is tired of listening to me
"If can end the unhappiness then end la"
or so I was told long ago by someone who regrets those words now
It's a different story for everyone
Maybe it'll work for me
Patience? I cant take it anymore
Communication? I just cant find the right words
Blame it on my bad command of english then
As for studies...i'll leave that till the 16th
And at this instant, I want nothing more than to move out of this goddamn house
Why is my life so fucked up?
Why cant there just be a part of it that doesnt make me feel like crap?
